27 dresses with Sheryl. The movie was so cute and sweet. But the trailer before the movie was the one that made me cry instead.
P.S I Love You. i think it will be one show i watch with no make up. a whole bag of tissues and watch it with someone who doesn't mind me crying my eyeballs out.

somehow i think this is going to be a wordy one.
i guess once in a while should be fine.

i know i'm heading for a breakdown soon. everything's changing so bad that i can't seem to catch hold of anything. everything seems to surreal right now, like it isn't right to leave. like there's something holding me back. i know whats holding me back. everything. but then again, everything is making me leave as well.
somehow being stuck in the middle makes it all worse.
i dont want to stay because i know its not going to get my anywhere. i want to excel. especially in something i really like. but after trying for more than a year, i'm still stuck here. no difference. so maybe leaving is the best thing to do now.
crying last night didn't help much either.
i just know that i have to do this. even though it hurts like crap. like a really huge part of my life has been ripped out of me. i guess i'll just have to accept it. you can't always have what you want.

on a more depressing note. my emotional status is going to the grave. i'm putting so much. its like as if i open up to you just so that you can rip my heart out. i'm trying so hard. but i dont receive the same from you. i'm not a telepathic. i can't tell what you're feeling right now. give me time. because i can't read you like an open book like how you read me.

the tension everywhere is going to kill us all. superficiality. thats what it is from the start.

my heart goes out to you really. what you keep inside that head of yours. all the deceptions. i mock you. i critically mock you. because you entwine yourself with so much of lies that you dont know whats going on around you. two words. screw you.

i think that supper last night made my whole week so far. getting a huge surprise from Mummy Jo. appearing at the outlet just i was about to blow up. then Ian just had to piss me off after my mood has gotten much better. the dilemma that was brought up seem to damper everyone's mood yet again. but stupidity on the was to getting our money and boy will always be boys.
that talk was much needed. and that hug. that hug made me want to break down in your arms.

i'm having the urge of throwing things all over the place. i hate being myself right now.

i'm giving up on you. when you're such an ass. i dont know what to do anymore. and besides. two more days. and you'll be gone. and most probably forget about everything.

you'll just have to learn how to smile when you kill.